Married At First Sight's Nikki Jefferson Found Hope In A Reality TV Place

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Nikki Jefferson is ready for you to get to know her, even if you think you already do.

After all, Jefferson entered our lives quite publicly as a cast member of the 20th season of Peacock’s hit show, Married at First Sight. On the reality show, where experts match couples, then marry them off to a stranger, the experts matched her with executive coach and higher-ed administrator Shawn Best. They were both Black, educated, and looking for love while in their mid-forties. 

What could go wrong?

Well, for one, she didn't "see" her groom at that TV altar.

“It wasn't until the one officiant announced my husband to me that I realized that that was who the experts had picked for me,” Jefferson said in her interview with THE BLACK SNOB.

“I wasn't trying to be rude or anything; I literally was like, ‘OK?’

After thinking Best was another officiant, Jefferson admitted that, like most people, she may have had some preconceived notions about what her partner would look like. In Best's case, her mind didn’t register him as her husband until it was announced.

But ever the optimist, she tried to make the best (no pun intended) of it.

“He wasn’t my usual physical type, and that caught me off guard," Jefferson said. "At the same time, I noticed other qualities that appealed to me, like his confidence, and I could see that he was a good-looking guy. Physical preference is only one part of attraction and only one aspect of a whole person. So once I understood that this was my match, my thinking became: he was chosen for a reason, so let’s stay open and explore.”

Despite that openness, it was pretty much downhill from there.

Best and Jefferson did not leave the show's 8-week experiment as husband and wife.

But this story isn’t solely about Jefferson’s made-for-TV marriage. It’s about a Black woman looking for her person, but not looking to be defined solely by that search. It’s about the totality of Jefferson—as a daughter, as a career woman, as a human being—and how she joined Married at First Sight to find love, but instead found something else.

Jefferson found hope.

The Nature of Nikki

As an avid reality TV watcher, I was drawn to Jefferson because, like many successful, single, ambitious Black women over 40, I saw a bit of myself in her—from her fashion sense to her dating woes to her demeanor. In fact, since I moved from the Midwest to the East Coast, every major city along the Atlantic Ocean seemed teeming with Black women like Jefferson, especially in Washington, D.C., and in New York City, where I currently live. Jefferson felt so familiar, so like me and many of my friends who are still building our careers and our lives while working and looking for love.

From the minute she appeared on my screen—ready for love—to when she showed us the half-drunk bottle of Veuve Clicquot in her fridge, I wanted to learn more.

"I said there’s always a reason to celebrate," she said, referencing the scene. "And I stand by that."

Were my instincts right?

Here's what I learned:

An ambitious high-achiever, Jefferson, 47, is a corporate human resources executive from “humble beginnings,” raised in Philadelphia.

Born to young parents, Jefferson describes her childhood warmly, as one where she was raised by a village of family and friends, including her grandparents, aunts and uncles, cousins, neighbors, and others.

"I was surrounded by an extraordinary amount of love," she said.

Her parents, both from Philadelphia, had Jefferson young, launching them into adulthood early. Her mother, from whom she inherited her sense of style, was the original "corporate baddie," she said, adding that her mom kept a small, pre-selfie-era notebook chronicling all her looks. Her mother started her office career shortly after graduating high school while her father worked a series of jobs before he eventually found his footing.

Her family treated education as "the primary differentiator and clearest path to a different life," so Jefferson took her studies seriously. ("My childhood included disciplined studying, homework, and endless mental drills," she said.) She attended magnet schools and, later, an engineering high school.

“As a child, it was always about getting the best education possible because that's going to unlock so much," Jefferson said. "And not just from a career and financial perspective, but it unlocks rooms. And so I'm in rooms that my ancestors would not even fathom that I would be in.”

While she was encouraged to pursue engineering and considered specializing in software development, she chose a different path—studying psychology and business at La Salle University in Philadelphia. There, Jefferson obtained her master's in clinical counseling psychology with a concentration in human resources consulting.

Jefferson said she was drawn to HR out of an intense curiosity about the dynamics of human interaction. She'd already enjoyed tutoring and mentoring young women, and was fascinated by workplace dynamics and her ability to make things better for the employees she served.

But as she sought to shape lives externally, she also sought to change another life—her own.

Jefferson always wanted more for herself.

Clothing tailored to fit, whether it was expensive or not. A tasting menu from a James Beard chef while also dining at the best mom-and-pop restaurants in town. Boutique hotels over vacation rentals and high-thread-count bedding. Visiting museums while on vacation and having spa treatments "in the name of self-care."

(Editor's note: Same, girl. Same.)

These were the things Jefferson wanted and would have in her life—the beautiful things that for many are the markers of making it. Of a life well-lived.

But Jefferson knows the difference between taste and being bougie for bougie's sake.

"Price and value are two different things," Jefferson said. "I have a coat I’ve worn well over a hundred times that costs less than a dinner, and I’ve walked away from beautiful things that were only expensive."

It wouldn't be the last thing Jefferson walked away from.

Risk It All

Unlike some would-be reality stars, Jefferson didn't purposefully seek the limelight—it found her. 

Now far from Philly, Jefferson was living and working in Seattle when a casting agent approached her and said they were producing a show there, asking if she’d be interested in auditioning. Thinking it would be a small production she’d never heard of, Jefferson was shocked when the agent called her a few days later and told her they worked on Netflix’s hit show Love Is Blind and Peacock's Married at First Sight.

Jefferson was only given a few days to decide if she wanted to join the cast, a very short window to choose whether or not to introduce herself and her pursuit of love to the world.

But she took that chance as an “open book, live-out-loud type of person” and a “risk-taker.” In fact, Jefferson decided to risk it all—her livelihood, her reputation, and her privacy—for love.

Prior to Married at First Sight, she’d tried online dating and being set up by friends and co-workers. She tried meeting people in real life. She’d even hired a matchmaker for some professional help. While she met some “very nice humans,” she couldn’t seem to find “her person.” 

Why not give the experts of Married at First Sight a shot?

“When this opportunity came, I thought, ‘OK, surely they're smarter than me and [know] how to figure out this matching compatibility thing. Certainly, they have a bigger network," said Jefferson. "So despite the fact that I was really terrified about saying yes, I felt like I had to say yes.”

Once she was hard-launched into filming and her marriage, she met weekly with the show's experts, matchmaker Paul C. Brunson and sexologist and family therapist Dr. Lisa Paz. The new couple also sometimes met with them for additional sessions based on her and Best’s needs.

But she admits that if she’d known what the experts initially knew about Best before meeting him, she would not have chosen this match.

"I can understand why the experts matched us in terms of our age and our ethnic background and race and our careers. But there's so much more to a person than those things, and it's the invisible things that are more important in a marriage in terms of compatibility—like communication," Jefferson said. "How do you repair? What are some of the underlying values? Maybe what are some of your hang-ups? What are some of your wounds that could come out in a relationship?

“So, while I understand the experts only had what was discoverable to them, I also know that you can present yourself in a good light and leave a whole lot of stuff yet to be discovered. And so I think my experience with Shawn was about that latter part, which is all the stuff underneath that proved that we were incompatible and not the best match.”

Married Life, Married Strife

Best and Jefferson didn’t always bring out the best (there’s that pun again) in each other while on the show. They bickered and often struggled to mesh. 

“There were times on the show where I came through sharper than I wanted to because I was hurt, and that's not necessarily a reason to be sharp,” she said.

To many viewers online, they seemed woefully incompatible. 

Jefferson admitted she reads the comments online, which she finds illuminating. But she's not wallowing in her haters, choosing to block those who disrespect her or Best. And while Jefferson wishes she’d handled a few of their eyebrow-raising situations better, she’s also not into the armchair psychology going on online about him. She’s given up trying to figure out why he reacted the way he did or said the things he said—such as saying Jefferson was “a Seattle 10" and "a New York 7,” asking her for sexual encounters as part of her "wifely duties," or dismissing her well-appointed home in a confessional. 

“She’s very bougie,” Best said in episode 12 of Married at First Sight after visiting her house. “I think she’s probably used to being the bougiest of her group. But I come from a very bougie group, so Nikki’s house is not so mind-blowing, in my mind. But it’s very nice; she’s worked very hard, and it has very nice, beautiful things that I really respect.”

Oof. The shade of it all.

“What I learned over time is that that's wasted effort,” she said. “I can't get inside his head or psychoanalyze or change his behavior. I can only change myself. I can only change how I perceive it. … I think a lot of times when you're in difficult situations, especially with a partner, [the negativity] can sometimes penetrate and all of a sudden you're second-guessing yourself, or you're self-conscious, or you're shrinking.”

Jefferson said she tried to understand and have compassion—perhaps Best hadn’t meant to be hurtful—but for her, much of it was.

“It was hurtful to be on the receiving end of the range of things like subtle jabs that were presented as jokes to me,” she said, adding that she didn't expect a partner to make comments that tore down or downplayed some aspect of her personality or life.

“Maybe your hater [would do that]? Maybe some person that you're having words with but not your person."

But the loss of love on Married at First Sight would actually be a gain for Jefferson.

She Found Hope In A Reality TV Place

After struggling to find her person for decades, any woman would be cynical. And to go on a reality show and marry someone publicly and fail at that marriage, inviting the world’s critique, might make another person bitter.

But something different happened to Jefferson.

Her failed match gave her hope.

“I probably went into this experience more cynical and jaded about love and dating,” Jefferson said, adding that before Married at First Sight she’d come off a dozen or so lackluster first dates and relationships that ran their course. “I would say after this experience, I'm actually less jaded and less cynical about love and really excited about meeting my person.”

Jefferson credits the show for helping her, through some hardship, learn what she truly wants in a relationship. And what she wants? “Psychological safety.”

She also wants to feel seen, to have a curious partner, and be loved and adored mutually. 

She also feels the show gave her the right tools to navigate marital difficulties. 

“I now know that difficulties in a marriage or relationship do not mean the relationship is bad,” she said. “A lot of times you can work through things if you communicate effectively and respectfully. So I feel like I am better than I came into this experience. And I think I'll be a better partner because of what I learned and what I went through.”

Jefferson has been dating since Married at First Sight ended, and she’s enthusiastic about her future. She shares that optimism with the many women she meets online and wants to build community with.

“I really wanted to be at the intersection of womanhood, and all that entails,” said Jefferson. “For me, it's some of my personal interests. It's wellness, beauty, fashion. It's career.

"And so I've had countless conversations with women in my DMs on Instagram, LinkedIn comments that are like, ‘I want to be in community with you,' or 'I want to learn from you.’ So, I don't know what that looks like, but I would just love to create a forum where we can kind of contain this conversation and pour it into each other, and just be better women as a result of it.”

After getting to know Jefferson and the brightness of her ambitions, I'm sure she'll figure it out.

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